What it is...

So this is a weight loss Blog.  The weight that will be lost forever, is my own.  I will post pictures, rant about struggles, and celebrated successes.  This is a journey that I have started time and time again.  This needs to be the last one.  I'm 27, these are the years I'm supposed to look back on and wish I was this size aren't they?  I will never wish for this, I don't want to see Extra Large on a tag again.  

I want to be a mom.  I want to have kids, and run around with them.  I want to be fit, and firm.  I want to see muscle definition in my arms.  I want a smaller bum, and a flat stomach.  I want to be able to grab t-shirts off the rack and buy them without trying them on first.  I want to strut around in a bikini without needing to suck in.  I want to be healthy and fit for my husband.  I want to live a long life.

And I want to be a Boudoir Model for a Photography workshop.

My amazing business partner has been asked to lead a workshop on Boudoir posing.  For it she needs both a thin model, and a plus sized model.  When she told me, I said "I'll be your plus sized model" and she responded "I would rather you be my thin model"  So I'm going to be.

I'm going to be the Skinny Model in a Boudoir workshop with 12 different photographers taking and posting my pictures.  This is my "Reward Cookie".

I have a lot of goals that I will reach on the way to my "Cookie".  And I will be sharing those goals along the way.

But first comes first.  Here is my starting point.

Yes my bum is lopsided.  This was a discovery as a result of this photo

These pictures are a little bit older, but I'm the exact same weight and size in them as I am now.  So unfortunately, it still works:


So as of February 9th 2012

Weight:  208  (size 14 - Extra Large)

Height: 5' 7"


Measurements

Right Arm:  14 1/2"

Left Arm:  14 1/2"

Chest:  40"

Waist (Belly Button):  38 1/2"

Hips:  45 1/2"

Right Thigh:  26"

Left Thigh:  26"


I have lots of goals that I want to achieve, but rather than listing them all, I'm just going to post one or two at a time.  Once I reach one goal, I'll cross it off the list, and add a new goals.  I feel this seems a little more obtainable.

Goal One:  Break 200 lbs - and maintain in the 100's for a week.
The maintaining is because I have broken 200, several times, in fact on October 30th, my scale read 199.5 - I was thrilled!!  And then Christmas and New Years Happened, and on Jan 2nd I was 213. 

Goal Two: Replace Coffee (with 3 sugars and 3 table spoons of coffee mate for a full sized travel mug) with Herbal Tea.  In order to cut out an additional 150 calories that I don't need.  I can drink tea without sugar, but I cannot drink coffee without sugar (believe me, I've tried!)

Goal Three:  Perform 20 consecutive miliary style push ups.  In the summer of 2010 my record was 35.  But these days I can only do about 6, before having to drop to my knees.  The body forgets so quickly. 


Last Night I completed this Fit Test

 And these were my scores:

Squat Jumps - 30
Pushups - 26 (knees)
Burpees - 11
High Knees - 66
Switch Lunge - 28 (16 jumping, 12 modified stepping out)
Tuck Jumps - 13
Tricep Dips - 9
Sit Ups - 16

By the end I was exhausted and wheezing, and I'm feeling a little soreness today - but I definitely felt good about myself while I was doing it! 


Tonight I'm going to complete this test again, and then after a 2 minute break, do it again, and call it my workout for today.  Wish me luck!!

This is what I'm aiming for as my "Reward Cookie"

This is 2007 Heather before the car accident that had me off work and in accident rehab for 3 months.  This Heather is 170 pounds.  Her shirt is a Medium, and her jeans are brand name size 8, and bought from a store she has never been able to shop in before then.  She is happy, and although her ribs stick out more, she is enjoying every day she doesn't have to suck in her stomach.  She's still in here, under 38 pounds of fat.  I'm going to find her.


And here's a little daily Motivation: