No longer the Skinny Model

So I have failed my goal.  I will not be playing the role of Melissa's Skinny Model at the end of May.  Come May 26th, I won't be 170 pounds, or a size 8, but rather I will be 16 weeks pregnant!!!!

This is the reason for my absence from the Blog.  How could I possibly keep updating my weight loss and inches lost, when I'm at the point where things are starting to get bigger?

It would have been nice to lose the weight, and get some nice tight muscles before starting my journey into motherhood - but at the same time, Ben and I had already been trying for 4 months, so I'm pretty ecstatic!  Plus this means I won't be giving birth in the middle of Graham and Ashton's wedding, or have to waddle around Mexico 8 months pregnant in +35 degree heat.  The timing of our little one is actually, in a word, perfect!

I'm due November 6th (although Ben's hoping I go into labour a day sooner for a "Remember Remember" baby...).  I will give myself the rest of November to slowly get into a working out routine again, and then I have Dec, Jan, Feb, and March to kick my ass back into gear so I can arrive in Mexico on April 14th looking hot!  I live for hot weather!  I would be content to live a week just in a bikini rocking a gorgeous deep tan, but I know that if I'm flabby and self conscious, that's not going to happen.  And who want's to go to Mexico and cover UP their body?!?  Not me!

Now this isnt' to say that I've stopped working out currently - not at all actually, although I must admit I have slowed down with my efforts. - as things grow, things hurt, and I've found my Cardio classes are causing me more pain than good at this time (jumping = No go for the tender girls)  - also, a pregnant lady in a hot room spells nausea and fainting.  I JUST managed to make it through my last Pump and Groove class without darting for the bathroom door, but I came really close a couple times.

Ben and I have still been going for long walks around our neighborhood, and exploring the paths nearby, and as I feel in my personal opinion. today is officially the first day of spring (it's beautiful out there!) I have plans to strap on the Vibrams and start running again.  I would love to run throughout my whole pregnancy, if I can anyway!  as I get bigger I might end up trading my running shoes for waddling/walking shoes  - but I want to do my best while I still can.

I have been looking forward to running all winter, and this is one time where I wish I had a membership to someplace with a track (although that's certainly not in the budget, especially right about now, because I"m on my way to claiming EI and extra's will definitely be a thing of the past.) But provided the ice is melted, I can still run on the sidewalks, and I intend to!

Running gave me such a great freedom.  Just putting on my ipod, and losing myself in my thoughts - it's a happy place of mine.

So right now, although I'm not losing weight, and in fact my scale is going up, and my inches are starting to increase, I couldn't be happier!  I don't think I've ever been happier to get bigger in my life before!  It's worth it though.  I can't wait until I can tell the rest of the world my happy little secret :)